This one will be short.
I think, once you have things you wanted, it can be tempted to get complacent. It can feel like work to make better things. As the building blocks of my life fell into place over the last year for what felt like the first time, this was tempting. However, once I entered a space where I could actually breathe, I got a different attitude.
The foundation is there. Everything I could ask for is in place. Now we can move on to the little luxuries. Now we can work on the body and never stress and sleep well every night beside my woman. Now we can keep everything nice and clean. Now we can take the time to go to therapy. Now we have space for this.
This makes me want to work harder, and I am not talking about my job. I am talking about creating things in life. I no longer feel the need to work to maintain, I feel the desire to work to grow things. My girlfriend and I are off to Jasper for the new year. This is a luxury we love. We spend more time relaxing. We both hit the gym lots. I cook better food. I sleep better. I spend more time with family. We have the dog to cuddle as well. I want to work now not just for what feels like survival or “getting out” of a situation, but for my future family, given that it is so easy to see this woman as helping me create that. In every way.
This is luxury, and this is a winning state.
Not working because you must, but because you can use it to grow. The flowers are already in bloom.